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The Sunday Edit – Volume 15

Every Sunday, I stop by to share with you a few raw and real stories from my week in The Sunday Edit. Stories where I edited struggles into strengths and found Gem moments when shining seemed impossible. In a world where everyone filters what they share online, I want you to see you’re not alone and I want to inspire you to have more good days. You’ll also find what products have been making my life easier, what new Gem finds I’ve come across, and the best sales going on right now!

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Holiday Stress.

Hmmm… I’m not sure where to start with this one. I keep seeing everyone’s posts about how grateful they are to be spending time with friends and family this coming holiday season. I get it, I’m so grateful for my family, too, but I think social media leaves out the other side of family get-togethers and the fact that they’re not exactly easy. For some reason unknown to me and completely outside of my control, there’s a cloud of dread that collects in my stomach when we have a big gathering on the horizon. Even though I love them all, any time I have to handle more than like 3 of my family members at once in the same room, I’m completely overwhelmed. In fact, I’ve skipped out on countless birthday parties and Christmas gatherings for this very reason – soon followed by regret and guilt for not going. There’s so much noise (I have a hard time when I can’t hear my own thoughts). So many expectations (what if no one likes my chocolate chip cookie cheesecake bars and the bacon cheddar ranch cheese ball that I put hours into making?!). Tension for various reasons. Lots of people in small spaces. Messes. Unavoidable awkward questions (I personally fall victim to “when are you having a kid???” at least 4 times at every event).

Since my mom works on Thursday, we had my family’s Thanksgiving get-together today and it included all of those things. It’s weird to feel stressed out by the people you love and it can certainly feel very isolating. I think for me, I have this expectation that holidays shouldn’t be stressful because who doesn’t want everyone around them to have a wonderful time? Then, I feel weird for creating stress in my mind about something that hasn’t even happened yet. By the time the event rolls around, I’m already so stressed and then stressed about the stress I have, that I’m so far in my head and insecurities that enjoying the moment seems impossible. I walk into it already with a short fuse. I don’t know how to change that part yet, but I am working on my perception of the situation.

I guess what I’m trying to say is, every family is crazy. It’s easy to get caught up in what holidays “should” look like to the point that when anything stressful happens, it feels like it takes away from that. And it’s frustrating when something stressful happens in an environment or moment that’s “supposed” to be happy. I’m here to tell you that stress and joy can exist together. It’s important that you remember that this holiday season. You’re allowed to be stressed out of your mind while being completely uncomfortable in the situation and still enjoy certain moments and share in the laughter. Just because your family stresses you out does not mean your any less grateful for or appreciative of them. So, don’t try to fight the stress. It probably won’t go anywhere. But, don’t let it close the door for you to experience joy this season either.

If this landed with you in any way, please let me know in the comments. <3

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